I have some things to be grateful for, for sure. One of them, is the fact that we, as humans, are allowed to set boundaries for our own comfort, and well-being. Sometimes, this means doing things others may not necessarily like, but may be necessary for ourselves, and our sanity.
I have had to say no to a few things lately, and it was extremely difficult, but necessary. There are just not enough hours in the day for everything I want to do, so I have been needing to prioritize a ton, and stick to the core things, so that I don't burn out.
Wow. Saying: "no."
It feels good, and awful, at the same time.
But as a good friend pointed out to me in the past week; it is not my job to save everyone from the onerous tasks that I may, under different circumstances, really excel at. It is my job to take care of myself, because I do have other people in my life who depend on me, and need me to be there, instead of 50 different places, at once. And even as I type this, I usually do have about 50 things going at once. I do thrive on multitasking, but at some point, adding that extra ball is tough for any good juggler.
I also need to remember that I don't have local family support, as others may have. The mister and I rarely get a night out together, and when we do, we have to pay a sitter. I sometimes find myself getting pretty jealous of my friends who talk often about their kid-free weekends. We get a few a year, and sometimes, they end up being filled with things we don't really want to do, like house maintenance, or other chores.
So, free time? For me? It's really at a premium. I need to remember that it is OK for me to say no to things when I am feeling like I am about to burn out. I am extremely grateful that I have friends who understand this. I guess that is part of growing up, 'non?